An Update to Me, For Me

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Right now I'm currently sitting at work. I can't remember the last time I've actually taken the time to even attempt to write on my blog but since then, I've made removed the link from my Instagram and want to make this blog more for me and about me. 

Since the beginning of the new year, I have:
  • Started a new job - which I love. Intelliware has been really great for me financially and stability wise. Everyone is welcoming and I'm being challenged to slow down & work towards something aka learning how the hell to do my job right
  • Had new roommates move in - I now live with Kayla & Zo which has been great. The dynamic of the house is definitely different than with my last 2 but we all get along great and it's nice finally feeling like I have a home
  • Spent a lot of time thinking - I have realized I have been in my head a lot as of recent. I've taken the time to analyze my own actions, patterns, and behaviors and have come to the conclusion that I revolve my life around people. In this time, I have also learned to accept a lot about myself and learn to not feel bad for always giving 100% when those around me don't. This particular topic has been in my mind most often and is often associated with my current partner. 
I think the real purpose of this post for me is to "write down" these thoughts I've been having for what seems like forever and say that I want to work towards moving forward. Today I spent quite some time browsing through articles on hobbies that may peak my attention. I would say my only real "hobby" is working out and checking my bank account. I want to return to trading but there are so many emotions involved whenever I attempt to try again that I always find myself pushing it off one more day. 

Moving forward in the next months, I WILL:
  • Be happy and completely satisfied doing things for people because I CARE
  • Not allow myself to feel taken advantage of
  • Find a hobby just for me
  • Go around the neighborhood and recycle 
  • Stop over analyzing things and let life do the rest
So here's to the purging of my insecurities and the start of something better

Xoxo
- Lianna

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