September 2018

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As time creeps forward and my days on this earth become numbered, I am increasingly amazed at just how much can happen in a month. September left my heart feeling stupendously happy and full despite being "homeless" for most of the month. I want to clarify, in essence, I chose to be homeless while I took my time to settle back into Richmond again. It was almost an adventure for me knowing that all I had/needed was my carry-on, towel, and some essentials. For almost a month, I would go to work, gym & shower, and then go to visit a friend and stay the night. My social life had never been so full and I valued the overwhelming amount of kindness from others which may have stemmed from their perception that I was baroque and begging on the streets. Nonetheless, I found a place and have to resort to new measure to keep my social life afloat.

ဖ Lucky for me, the entirety of September was full with friends, special events, and more. Oktoberfest (in September, tf? I know) filled Richmond's Museum District with the aroma of sauerkraut stuffed balls, giant pretzels, and alcoholics & I could't help but slip into Fall's embrace. Pride Fest was next and for a day, Brown's Island was covered in thousands of queers and gallons of glitter. It was amazing to see the amount of people there supporting the truth that Love is Love.

ဖ I'm sure, by now, my already small fan base has shrunk even smaller but I wanted to briefly mention to my readers (aka myself) that this month was very special to me because I became me. I don't like using the term "coming out/came out" because it puts this negative connotation that anyone who is not straight is hidden until they have that "coming out" moment and that's not the feelings I want to have associated with it because at the end of the day, I've always just been me.

ဖ And just like how I always say, life has a funny way of working itself out. Each month as I reflect on what happened and reread previous months' articles, I see how all the little things have pieced themselves together. I realize "why" I came back from AZ so soon, "why" I struggled with this thing and that over the past year, the list goes on and on. This month, I realized, all those things led me up to being able to meet a very unique soul and in time I'll come to find out where else life will lead me to.

xoxo
- Lianna

P.S. I also went to California but I want to write a separate article for that which I'll upload later!

Comments

  1. UnknownOctober 13, 2018 at 9:27 AM

    Yasss queen �� love how you talk about becoming more yourself. Saying "coming out" has negative connotations for you was something I also felt but couldn't quite articulate before. Cant wait to see whats next.

    Xoxo ur small fanbase

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